Growing up in a typical Punjabi family, I only used to go to the Gurdwara a couple times a year to attend weddings; however, I never learned about Sikhi or the existence of God in general until grade 11.
One day I was browsing the internet for rap videos – hoping that the music would relieve me of the tension that I was feeling from family and friend issues. I questioned what the purpose of my life was and whether it was worth living in a world where all I could see was darkness and misery. I guess this was like an ardaas to Vaheguru ji, because I was immediately given the biggest spiritual awakening of my life. Somehow I accidently clicked on a kirtan video – something which I had never consciously listened to before.
Listening to it, I wondered how the raagis could be in such bliss. What were they singing? What did they have in life that I didn’t? I asked my mom about the video and she said “look in our Guru Granth Sahib ji, it’s somewhere in the house”. Even though I didn’t know much about Sikhi at the time, I knew that Guru Granth Sahib ji was usually up high in a big Gurdwara. There certainly wasn’t any room in our house that looked like that! I spent hours searching our storage room, which was filled to the ceiling with furniture and boxes. Almost ready to give up, I came across one suitcase on the floor. When I opened it, I burst into tears. In the suitcase was Guru Granth Sahib ji - covered with dirt/dust and some of the angs slightly torn. I couldn’t believe my eyes and instantly felt a connection. From that day on, I vowed to take care of Guru Sahib – eventually transforming the room, my entire family and myself.
Even though my family and friends initially reacted with hostility to my Sikhi transformation and there was not a lot of sangat in my city, I knew that there was no turning back. After roughly two years of teaching myself Gurmukhi and learning about Rehat Maryada through internet resources, I had an eye-opening jamdhoot experience. Feeling that my time to leave this world was coming soon, I attended the nearest Amrit Sanchaar and was blessed with a new identity and life purpose in August 2012. “One who meets with the Holy True Guru finds the treasure of excellence” (Ang 21).
Note: Thank you to Bhenji Ikjot Kaur for accepting the request to write her personal story and sharing it with the Sangat.
Dhan Hai Guru! Dhan Hai Teree Sikhee!